Unleash your inner BEAST!
There's something different about me...can you tell what it is?
Maybe you know me, maybe you don't...so let me explain!
I look different. I think different. I act different. I'm happy. I'm healthy. I feel fulfilled. I embrace my flaws and work to be a better version of myself daily. I focus on what I CAN change instead of dwelling on the past & what I can't. I wake up excited about life & what's ahead! I wake up excited to be alive and for the all things I will get to experience and see and accomplish in a new day! I FEEL different. I am empowered.
Fifteen months ago... I was struggling. I was always tired, I felt like I was just going through the motions because in reality I was, I napped everyday, I was sad despite all of the blessings I knew I had, I lived off of granola bars and coffee...lots and LOTS of it. I maybe had one meal a day. I didn't make time to make myself a priority. (I mostly contribute this to learning to be a single mom...all the emotions, the pressure, the lack of sleep, the healing from emotional abuse...but any who!)
I was inactive aside from taking Declan for daily walks just to "get some air" & a desperate attempt to reclaim my body after a baby. I had gained over 60 pounds with my son. I was NEVER comfortable in clothes. I didn't like who I saw when I looked in the mirror-- not just physical appearance but in my eyes, they were dim with a darkness or sadness and defeat and worry.
I woke everyday with a racing heart and anxiety...how could I face another day...how could I do it ALL...I felt alone. Scared. Craving to find myself, craving to be the example and good mother I knew I could be. Longing to live up to the potential I knew was hidden somewhere inside me.
My self esteem was in the dumps, I was constantly picking myself apart. I was plain and simple...unhappy, unhealthy (mind and body), unfulfilled and had NO clue where to begin to make a change first. When your life needs an overhaul...often we get stuck looking at ALL the things we need to change, rather than realizing, we can only start SMALL. ONE thing, ONE day at a time. Little changes over time, compound to something so much greater.
I had EVERY excuse in the book. I was afraid to fail. I was afraid I couldn't get where I wanted to be. I was afraid my circumstance and my past would keep me there. I was afraid of what I had to work through, to get where I wanted to be.
(Truth is, I never will be THERE. Because now I know, as long as I'm breathing I'll be in constant pursuit of growing into new goals and working to become a better version of myself.)
And let me tell ya...It didn't change over night. It happened with a series of choices, day in and day out...NO shortcuts. There would be bumps, road blocks, days I wanted to throw in the towel...so like I said, I started SMALL.
I started making ME time. I had to realize it wasn't selfish, and I was worth it. Just because I was a mom, and a single mom at that, didn't mean I wasn't important. I shifted to seeing, if I wanted to be the BEST, I had to take care of me first! That was by far the hardest battle in the beginning. It's easier to love and focus others lives than it is to truly learn to love all of yourself and work through the tough stuff.
I started small. I added in working out a half hour a day with an at home program from Team Beachbody (which was the greatest blessing because now coaching others is my full time job!), I introduced superfood and nutrition dense Shakeology to my daily diet and cut the coffee back, I embraced cooking healthy meals for us knowing I was getting what I needed and giving Declan a solid healthy start and foundation, I promised to get some more sleep,and I promised to invest in personal development to work on growing myself daily. And did...
And day by day. I got better. I got stronger. I gained more clarity. I found me, more and more. My energy started to come back. My anxiety started to fade. I learned more about myself than ever have and put the past to rest, where it belonged. I no longer looked back, I looked FORWARD. What once seemed impossible, started to seem possible...
I cut out negativity- thoughts, people, situations, excuses, self limiting beliefs and doubt. And replaced them 10 fold. I learned to catch myself when I found myself falling into negativity and reboot!
I focused on where I wanted to BE even if I didn't know it was possible...and how I wanted to help others realize they can overcome ANY struggle- physical, mental, emotional...because I'm no stranger to any of it.
Because the truth is...often the only thing standing in our way from becoming what we truly want and living the life we truly want, or having the body we want, or finding the dream job we want...those things we all day dream about, is OURSELVES.
Inside every person, there is beauty, power, potential, purpose, passion, DREAMS.
I ain't talking vanity. I'm talking soul. That inner BEAST. That little voice inside you that says, I can accomplish ANYTHING. That little voice that says, try again, try harder, don't give up, you got this!
Can't hear it? I couldn't either. It only started to come back, when I faced my fears, demolished my doubts, decided I was going to make a change, decided I would fake it til I started to make it and believed it... And I wasn't looking back, no matter how hard it was. (Oh, and I stopped giving a shit about what anyone thought, that is HUGE No one has to live your life but you...if it doesn't make you happy, say TA TA!) I did what I had to do for ME. For the first time in my life.
Your truth, will unleash your beast, and set you FREE.
